Monday, July 14, 2008 @2:02 AM
it seems that today was Be Sick Day and i didnt know about it~ today all my closer friends were like, weirdly sick in some way or another and i was like.. the only one that was not.. like so weird.. then other than that.. ever since the morning when i realised that teddy bear* tried to call me but couldnt get through cos i was asleep, i couldnt stop thinking about him.. well.. cant say much.. i guess i really miss him..
yesterday, when i had nothing much to do, i just edited my song [memory] cause i remembered what my aunty said to improve on it.. she said its like writting a story only it had a tune in it.. well.. yeah.. but i think i wanna improve the tune on maybe the guitar part or remake it and play it on the piano.. i showed the lyrics to my friend and she told me to take a video of me playing it and post it on youtube.. the thing is, i guess im a little shy about it.. ive seen a photo of me on the papers and on the net but if its a video, err.. well i think its just weird.. i mean its kind of showing to the world cause its like.. err.. well.. universal? i guess so.. i just think its weird for me to do that.. if i ever wanna really do it, i guess i will start of with a cover of other people's song first.. i wont wanna jump start on everything.. to me its like, you're afraid to fly but you want to go see the clouds while you're in a plane..
you know how much you feel like floating and to see what its like being in the clouds.. feel yourself touching the sky and know that you wont hurt yourself because you feel that someone is always right there to catch you before you hit the ground.. well.. thats how i feel right now.. im not exactly falling if thats what youre thinking.. ever wondered what was behind the clouds? ever thought that maybe theres candyfloss.. somewhere in my mind, i feel like theres a land at the back of my head where i just sit and think through whatever it is im stressed about.. its been a long time since ive been there but i will never forget what its called.. people may call it Lala Land but i call it Candy land.. it makes you think of all the sweet people and make you forget all the things that youre stressed about.. i dnt just go there when i go to sleep, i go there when i get tired and start dreaming.. in candy land, there is a rainbow.. at the end of it, there is a pot of candy.. funny how i cant seem to get the candy.. it always seem to get fuzzy and disappear and thats then i get zapped back into reality.. dont you ever wish that somethings dont happen only in fairytales? maybe a land of chocolates? haha..